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New Years Resolution

I decided to try two things this year I've dunked on before: New Year's Resolutions, and mindfullness. Increased mindfullness and better hygeine are my resolutions for this year. The reason for mindfullness specifically is not to better my mental wellbeing, but rather just to see if measures up to the hype. It's a little expirement on myself, haha. I have made some low effort to implement mindfullness into my life, but since I wrote a post on (redacted) about how I think it's way over-rated, I figured I should give it another swing before dunking on mindfulness again. Chances are I will still believe it's over-rated, but it's not as I think there's anything wrong with mindfulness itself. I believe it can be benificial. I keep thinking of "better" resolutions I could have gone with; it's hard to stick to one thing. I don't understand how people make YEARS long commitments to anything ever.

This isn't exactly a resolution but I'm also trying to shift my mindset to where I don't mind taking my time on things. I know I will never finish that project, get that job, or reach that art goal in the time I want or even need to; I've always been an incredibly slow person; so I want to take my time on other stuff I would normally put on the back burner, like cleaning, reading, or, y'know...hygiene. The time will pass anyway and it's better to procrastinate doing something that will make me happy rather than rotting in place and banging my head against a wall as I can't figure my shit out.

1/3/2025

The Good Old Times

If you're chronically online enough in the right spaces like I am you probably know there's been a resurgance of aesthetics from the early 2000's, aka, "y2k" (and also webcore to some extent). There's nothing wrong with these styles but the extent to which this romantisciztion has gone is getting a bit out of hand. I understand that everything is terrible right now. I don't fault you for seeking escapism. But pretending you live in another era won't fix it.

There was something this guy said, "I can't stand people who are stuck in the past and can't make something of themselves in the present" and it pissed me off at first because he was kind of dunking on 2000s fashion but I think I get where he's coming from now. The 2000s were not a good time for queer people or at least not from my perspective, and lgbt people romanticizing y2k as a whole always makes me kind of uneasy. Again, I'm not just talking about using mp3s and cutting your bangs ~like that~, I mean fully believing earlier times were superior to this one. Though I don't know much about what it would be like to live in the late 1900s it also applies there. Imagine being in that year for a little while if you must, but be honest about the fact that every era came with its downsides, and simply being in another year wouldn't necessarily save you. We should be trying to fix the present, not regress to the past.

1/2/2025