Current events

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Normally I at least TRY restrain myself from being so emotional publicly but I feel like this is deserving of a feverish vent, actually. I surely hadn't planned making my first blog post on here so negative. Everything feels so surreal: I am floating through space one moment, and sick in my room the next. It's a truly beautiful feeling.

As I am writing this first scentence, I am not yet sure what I want to say. But I must say something. I know the world as a whole has ups and downs, I know this does not last forever--even if not for me, not for future generations. But it feels as if we are dying. In my own personal life things are spiraling and spiraling. I feel like I am withering, from the digits up.

I am angry I did nothing to prevent this, though really I'm not sure I could do anything. Not as an individual. Maybe it's both my failure and a collective failure. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

But one thing I am sure of more now than ever, is that we need community. I need community. We need to hold one another up. It is perfectly fine to express anger, but let us not forget to support eachother in these hard times and look for ways to mitigate the damage, no matter how small. Much love to everyone. I'm so sorry.